Why???
How much will money buy? Another hopeless attempt to have a conversation with him that doesn't stop-and once again it doesn't work. I think it's safe to say i finally give up.I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just going to spend more time with my family again, and hang around my room do ANYTHING, but get online anymore. And if i do get online 50% of the time i AM on i'll be under invisable until i feel like talking to people. And if/when he ever feels like talking to me, he can let me know. Otherwise i'm not wasting my time staring at the screen, listening to depressing music, watching the hours go by and feel this way. I don't know how i got to this point but sometimes I wish i could delete everything that lead me to this point and start over. but who's to say i wouldn't end up here anyway? yeah. I'm just fucked. This whole cycle will be never ending, and once again things will end up the same, but i always keep trying and i'm starting to hate myself. - old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on 03.14.03 at 9:30 pm |