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That is IT! *Stomps my foot SO HARD* I'm going to PA to take care of my baby :- I hate not being able to be there for him. But.. He has me either way. :X I'm rooting for him miles and miles away :X But i swear when i DO get to see him i'm going to keep hugging him :- He's going to be my teddy bear for the first day and i will NOT let him move except to go pee, at which he will have to take me with because i like to watch. ;) lmao Awww = Well since i can't be there to hug him ill hug my stuffed annimoooll :( i love him so so so so so so so so so muchhhhhhhhhhhh :X just blah.. The thought of being without him- LIKE YESTERDAY- Made me so scared, numb, and i was lost. People said it looked like i took 8327487474 downers. = I was even talking so low and slow without even putting an act on -not that i would :| - and i just felt so sad inside. I don't know. I know i can live without him- But i don't want to. I've lived without him being mine for too long and now i just want to steal him away from the world and take care of him :X I know i'm inlove... Because when we weren't together- i would compare everyone to him. 'His personality isn't like jays' 'he doesn't make me laugh like jay' ' he isnt silly like jay'. Somethings about crumb you just can't replace, and i wouldn't want to. When i know he's mine, it's joy that fills my heart, and spirit. I feel so much Adrenaline.. It's fucking maddddd! I swear. But he brings me to life- and when i can't have him, i'm just a body walking the world like the others, but when i am with him, i feel so powerful, so immortal, and it's so fucking nuts. But it's beautiful. For once... A relationship is beautiful. And i know i tripped yesterday, and there's really no excuse for it, when you think you just got gyped, but he understood. And i think we're growing not only as people, but we're seriously growing together as well. I love this. I'm complete. old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on 04.02.03 at 4:17 am |