Emotion is dead
[Here's a thought if you're willing to listen- i only tell the truth of the feelings i'm given- an you hear me now?listen. Whispers in the rain.. Listen.. Don't push love away- you know you do... It's all we have.] The one time i'd like to make peace witht he world- it doesn't want to make peace with me. I'm tired of seeing people suffer, people being hurt, i'm tired of being abused, tired of feeling so much hate in my heart, feeling the way i do about people- i just wish grudges would go away until graduation is over. i want to be able to smile and mean it, when i say goodbye to what i invested four years of my life in. This is actually the longest i've been at one school- surprisingly. I'm thinking about graduation. And i'm afraid of leaving a lot behind and i'm afraid of losing a lot of memories. I just wish people would give me something to hold on to for once. If anything my only wish would be for everyone to be happy-- but you can't make a world happy. I guess i have trouble making one single person happy. Can't say i don't try though- right? I guess from here on out i'm on my own. I wonder how i'll feel this summer- if i'll keep 'maturing' the way i have been- or if i'll wish i was kid again. I remember being 14 wishing i was older. 18 is scary.. And i guess life keeps getting scarier. I guess i'm ready for challenges though. Haven't i always been? Oh well.. I don't know what else to write. I'm going to talk to someone who actually cares about me. ;x my crumb. Ness old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on 04.22.03 at 10:36 pm |