One last drink
You don't tell people things and expect them to be okay with whatever it is you told them. It just How does one manage to be there for everyone else, and allow no one to be there for them? That's what being the 'friend' is these days. When every guy see's you as the 'friend' you'll always be that. And your cursed. Your probably going to be alone for ages and ages. EVERY guy i know- see's me as their friend. Nothing more. I'm tired of being the one the guys run to with problems, instead of being with the person and creating them. I hate being able to see thing's other's can't and i hate being able to predict most things. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATEEEEE IT!!!! I give up. No where to go from here. SO i give up. I guess this is growing up, ay? I have a feeling i'm going to be alone for a long long long while. Yay. ----- Anyways- Today was alright i guess. Azra wasn't here though = Akos and Daniel started asking me retarded questions because they know i'm bi-bi curious. And they asked me the sickest question, if i ever "think" about azra, and have we made out yet. I was actually digusted by that. She's like my fucking sister, damn guys are fucking retarded. I swear they think that if you get labeled "Bi" that you like everyone from both sexes. Uh no- it doesn't happen, i get attracted to a girl ONCE in a blue moon. It's vary rare that i get attracted to all the girls in this damn world. The only one at roosevelt i would possibly be better 'friends' with is Alondra, and i think she already knows that. Because we're best friends and we understand eachother.She knows me and can feel me. She hears my words and she listens like no other. ----- Today i have come to the conclusion that guys suck ass. Again. And i think i just need to focus on school, and me. I guess i need to 'improve' me somehow. I'm just tired of being confused- so this new up coming semester i'm going to make things a lot less confusing. Bet your fucking ass on it. As soon as i move into the new apartment, and grades are done, and my surgerys done. Your going to see a WHOLE new person. People think my 'wall' was bad then- ha'. Just wait. I'm done being the gullable blind one. So THANKS to anyone who thinks so. I have a mind and i KNOW how to use it. Oh and baby- i will. Assholes of the world watch out. =| hmph. HAND =; Broken, ..... Sonic I can be as humble and gullable as the next girl, and believe what you say. Or i can be a real vengeful bitch and make you crumble from the inside. "What makes you different, makes you beautiful... To me. " -Bsb. Hell yes. Bye.
old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on 01.21.03 at 5:12 pm |