Thank You from the bottom of my heart
I Care... I forgive you.. Let's be friends.(?) I'm tired.. And I Felt It For Awhile Now. Right about now.. I think i've hit the highest point of Sadness/ Happiness/ Confusion/ And seeing things clearly. I'm finally tired of all the animosity that goes on, on this thing. I'm tired of having so much hate towards some, and less towards others, and just one big attitude all around. It's offcial and obvious that i never could tell anyone anything about my personal life without them mocking it, or telling 2874556334 people. But i guess the point is i miss talking to people in general. When someone hurts me i tend to break free and go away. As if for a couple months i disapear from the persons life. I do this offline too with people here. I'm just really tired of people somehow making their way to my shit-list, and I to theirs. i guess all i'm trying to say is the only way i can get rid of this burden i carry everyday is if i just tell people i forgive them, and mean it. Maybe i am this Cunt, Bitch, Megan- I know you like to run your mouth a lot as do a lot of us- And i know you got me into some shit a lot of times with things that never even applyed to the other persons situation, but you lead them to believe otherwise- I forgive you for that, But i'm not sorry we are friends, because though we had times when you were completely shady to me with shit i'd never do to you- you were one of the best listeners that i've ever had. And when something was wrong with me- you were there. I think your growing and your starting to change for the better, and i think your realizing what's going on more. I love you. Youre like that sister i never wanted. Lmao jp =) Chelle- Ahh crap = What the fuck can i say to you that i haven't already over the past 4 years? I don't know really. What i can say is you've won my heart over and over again and you suprise me more and more every day with how much i can confide in you, and know that it's okay to be there for you, and not feel like our friendship is only half there. You make me laugh, and you help try to bring out the best in me. I can only wish i can accomplish to do the same to you over time. Adam- 'You almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines' Lol In a good way though- WHenever i cry like a little baby or whine about the thousand guys i was dumb enough to fall for when i shouldn't have, or just allow my self to take signs that weren't there- adam was there to call me a dumbass, make fun of me, and make me smile again. Lol Adam has the greatest personality. He's never uptight- he can be serious, caring, and funny all at once. I so need that. lol Jensen, Cam, Justicio, Jayson, Mike, Myki, Mikey, Megan, Dani, Kari, Aaron, Shell, Jill, Sabbath, Alyssa, Syed, Rami, Alondra, Evelyn, Oshana, Giulia, Milisava, Ivan (Thank you for being so damn cute and making 8th grade the best ever. haha), Pedro, Ramon, Julio, Elmer, Usman, James, Ivelis, Andrew, Hoang, Cathy, Cherron, Lizette, Daisy, Felix, Ren, Azra, Aaron, Jeremy, Lu, Austin, Tyler, Megan, Tasha, Justin(Opie), Dylan, Josh, Susie, Alan, Adam, Aj, Dunkin, Amy, Rob, Robbie, Andrew(bmxer), Noah, Miranda, Kara, Abbey, Anton, Whit, Dex, Ashamolie, Davey, Claire,Lindsay, Lyndzah. Thank you.. All. For shaping this Loser Kids personality. Lol I'm sure there's a few more of you, but i guess these are the ones that stuck out over the past 5 years. That made me feel good, and bad, but when i think of it- the good always stays on top because that's just a feeling you can't replace. See all those people on the ground- wasting time- trying to hold it all inside- but just for tonight- on top of the world sitting here wishing- something is missing.. Maybe i!...What do i know?- Without it all i'm choking on nothing. old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on 03.14.03 at 11:35 am |