Why The Long Face?
Who's Your whore?
I'm your whore!
Who's your whore?
I'm your whore!
But when everyones gone and disapeared-
Who will be there?
How many faces must take place of the girl that once was?
How many lies must a guy spill out-
Before he's sick of himself
Hurt the girl-
And can't look himself in the eyes?
How many stories have you made up today sweety?
Does your situation taste sweeter as it get's harder?
Have you made your grave already?
If you can't trust in yourself-
Then how can you trust someone else?
Keep playing that same tune over and over,
As all the things you done run repeatedly in your head
Keep believing that things can get better-
You're too far in your tracks to go back now-
Your burning on the inside
And no one can tell.
But when everyones gone, and disapeared who will be there?
Me.
Why?
Who's your whore?
I'm your whore.
(Right?)
-Sonic
Well there's the poem/song i wrote. If it's edited and set up with a chorus properly and a bridge - yeah it could work as a song.
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To You:
I only react to what you throw at me- basically. The reason my ways with you tend to be going up and down- is because you're going up and down. And you confused me really badly- but I finally got the whole picture- and now i'm just going to leave things as is. Remember: Friends don't get THAT close. I don't do the shit I did with you- with friends. Shit like that is personal for me, and I guess it's a common thing for you, and your chic friends- but whatever.
When you allow something to crumble, and fall apart- Why should I bend backwards to catch it all and fix it? How much wrong have I really done?
Truth is- I don't have a fetish for head games, and I don't feel like being played with- I see where we stand now and when/if Your going to stop calling, and stop e-mailing and stop talking to me- just because your afraid of how I might act- then that's on you. But from day one- My Your:"Hot" - "Cold-shoulder" Talks have been because of you and your misleading ways. Then again, I remained blind and just went along, I guess i'm the really stupid one, huh? Mhm. Yeah.
You may think that people go no where if their life isn't planned out- well i know what I want from life- But i also know how life cna be- life destroys dreams, everything you work your damned hardest for- and I can't predict i'll be okay with my Blueprints to life- So I can only wish for the best. i can't count on being here tomarrow when i don't have a sure ticket- Maybe that's how you work- But it's not like that for everyone. All i can do is keep working towards my goal, and NOT put other people down because they don't have it all figured out yet.
What happens if you don't get/ find what your looking for in the Air Force, James? Do you have plans on how to fix it? Or are you just like the rest of us? Take the hits as they come-
Only thing that matters is follow your heart and eventually you'll get it right.
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That's all for now I guess- I may bite my tongue after writing this and wish i didn't- I hate drama. But whatever- it was already caused and i'm just finishing my 'role' in it.
I think i'm going to for sure take ivelis up on that summer road trip. I need to mend things with some- and start friendships with the new- I don't want to leave High School on a bad note. And yeah.. A week with a bunch of people having fun sounds good to me.
Azra taught me something- which basically was perfectly interpreted by Kurt cobain: If you fool yourself, he will remain happy. Yeah. I know Kurt.
Surprisingly, When Felix put the little head phone by my ear and said "These are cool cats" when i thought he said something else- like a band name- i was like WHAT THE HELL That's Nirvana, Dork. Lol. He's like I KNOW. And I was like then what the heck did you say?He's like I said These Are Cool Cats. lol But yeah. I think it's awesome he's listening to Nirvana- Something different out of the every Hip- Hop scene. I think he's trying to get me into Hip Hop- I still think Hip Hop is evil- with exceptions of some.
I told him Singers/Writers/ Singers That Write- Only really write about what they know, discovered, or want to know- And talking about getting high and being trippy- 'woah' world don't fit what i'm known to. But i'll be open minded and check out them dudes he told me to listen to in class- He said Kurt is a really good writer- but that his guys have even more awesome lyrics then Kurt.
We'll see-
Sonic
<3
old embraces
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