Over sick cycle
Mmmm.. By the looks of things, i'm guessing you were trying to get with Sara?-finger- -- Anyways. I have a BIG AP exam tomorrow, but it doesn't count towards my Grades. So i'm not worried about it. I'm going to walk in with a pen and well no pen. They better provide stuff = lol And yeah i'm going to walk in with what little i know about mechanics, memories, experiences, stories, and some background litterature and just write my ass off from 830-1. weeee. haha. SO yes. I'm pretty much done with any male in this world. I have a feeling i just keep getting lied to and lied to. I think he only tells people what he thinks they want to hear, or he doesn't have the balls to just be honest- or maybe he's just being selfish? Ah well it's done and over. And i'm regretting i wasted any tears because i just got played :) yay. But yeah, it's proven i'm not good enough for one person to love me. As soon as someone 'better' comes along, i get dropped ;) yay. Anyways i'm going to watch everwood. Being that i don't really talk to anyone, and now i don't sit here and wait for him to get on because there's nothing there anymore. yay. fun. goodnight. My arms are weak from holding on to something for so long that wasn't even there. I grasped air, i grasped nothing, i grasped a ghost that i thought was love, but it was really me loving something i dreamed into this world i suppose.Once again in this fairy tale i play the dopey fool that's trapped in their own mind and heart with nothing to help me break free. I remain numb and silent. old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on 05.05.03 at 7:53 pm |