I don't wanna give up before i die or let fear rule my life..
Well i haven't written in this journal much. I use my Livejournal like always. But yeah, if any of you have livejournal, i'd be glad to add you. and allow you to add me. [it's friends only] but here's the link : triggerxhappy & yeah. Hey to: Ashley, Abbey, Mark, Christy.. I haven't talked to you guys much, but yeah... I just wanted to say hi <3 haha. I hope everything's going well, and the drama stopped. <333 -- My mother argued again with me-- weee i love when she does it, it THRILLS me. [not]. But yeah. I'm so tired of it. I told her to call my insurance and get me a fucking therapist because i have a lot on my mind-- and i'm tired of the fighting and bullshit. I can't take it anymore, and i need to solve these problems. I can't take her throwing shit in my face, telling me how cold hearted i am. I'm sick of it. But yeah i don't feel like spilling my problems out on anyone, because i really don't think anyone can understand what's going on-- or me for that matter.. So that's why i haven't been talkative for the last 2 months. Everyone seems to have their own things going on & i... do to but i wish i had someone really to talk to and air all this out-- but it's all to draining so i'll wait until i get a therapist or something. Because i'm finally ready to talk aboot it all. bleh Scott is off wiht his friends as usual on his day..off. big surprise eh? yeah. maybe if i'm lucky he'll talk to me for 2 minutes tonight. well 1/2 of a minute, because he's in a daze 75% of the time, or busy when he talks to me. -le sigh. I'll try to update this more often. i guess... I spent a lot of months with this journal .. a lot of months.. jeebus. anyways yeah. >>nene<< old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on 07.27.03 at 3:19 pm |