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I am.. So fucking jaded. I swear there is NO guy WHAT SO EVER out there for me. The people I DO clique with don't think of me as someone to date, and the ones that don't well.. Don't. I don't know. Men are fucking odd. They might as well date their own kind for crying out fucking loud!!!!!!!! RAWR!! I want a new diary template but i'm too fucking lazy to make one, plus school is here tomorrow and i'll have no time what so ever. Bastards :- I don't even remember if i have any homework or not. Ha. This could mean i'm in deep shit in this up coming week if i didn't do shit over break then all of a sudden i have all these missing asignments. = UGH!!
I think time moves far too fast. I wish it would stop for a bit so i can catch up. Time seems to run slowly- very slowly when i'm with someone. Oddly enough. But when i'm not with someone i find all these Jobs and Tasks to do to keep my mind offa' being lonely! Oh what ever will i do. = Basket ball season is almost over, and as mean as this sounds i want to jump up and scream HALELUYAH! PRAISE THE LORD!! lol. Sorry. = That means i have MORE free time during the week to get stuff done- sleep- relax. BE LAZY!haha. Well the way my day runs normally with basket ball is like this:
Monday- Basketball practice ((ugh)) this is horrible, after just having the weekend fly by.(Sometimes there's games on Mondays- mainly practice ones. =; THE HAND! Tuesday- Robotics. (oh the fucking joy)I'm beginning to hate every fucking bastard in there except Alondra, and Kerubin. I swear. Ever since Rami and i haven't been friends, i just don't wanna' be near the people in the club, because he's such a bastard sometimes. I don't know- maybe it's just me?Nah... haha. I was already not able to go to Indiana, i BET he was happy about that. Oh well i benifited from not going anyways, i got to sleep in today. woo hoo!! haha. Most of the girls in the club dig me n' shit, and so do the guys, but like the MAIN members hate me now i think? Cept for Syed. Syed is like my little brother i swear- i tell him everything not worrying about if he tells someone- like SOME PEOPLE DO!Ugh. Wednesday-Basketball games (oh the joy.x's 2) Well it isn't TOO bad if it's a home game, cuz that means my mommIE and i run the fuck home, i ignore dinner and go straight to sleep listening to some good sad tunes. lol. Don;t even get time to think about my day. = Normally NHS is on this day too but i do ANYTHING to avoid going to those damn fucking retarded selfish meetings with a load of big headed stuck up people. The only ones i conversate with is Alondra(again), Azra and sometimes Ana, but i learned she can be very *evil* deceiving in a way. I don't know. She's blonde go figure. (Not to be mean) But sometimes we click when it comes to guys we like but then we don't when we talk about certain guys. She gets retarded and excited, i get quiet and shut up. Hard to explain because i'm FUCKING LAZY RIGHT NOw!
Thursday- PRACTICE PRACTICE AND MORE PRACTICE. Aww the joy of being sweaty :) haha. = not. Ohb well i love basketball because for them 2 1/2-5 hours my mind is on one thing and OFF every retarded problem i have. THANK YOU JEEBUS!
Fridays- JUST WHEN I FUCKING THINK MY WEEK IS DONE I GET FUCKING BASKETBALL GAMES UGH UGH UGH UGH. =;
Well yeah, thats basically how everything goes. There's homework somewhere in there, but i avoid HW as much as possible :) Plus like 289347239874 projects for god knows what classes, that stress me out. I miss Mr. hilderbrandt. He made my life 70 percent less stressful. As we talked about the fucked up teachers and how retarded some are. Made me feel good :) haha
All i have to say is Roosevelt sucks fucking ass. = Wake me up when i graduate. Thanks. :| OH FUCK I FORGOT SOMETHING. I NEED TO FUCKING GET A PROM DRESS MADE, MY GRAD FEES PAID OH OH OH AND!!!!!!!! SOME MORE FEES!!!! OH HOW I LOVE SPENDING MONEY!!$$$$$ =) NOT. = I think i'm going to go to prom is a frickin sheet, with old school converse. YEAH BASTARDS! Ugh. School is stuck on stupid and so are MOST of the people. There are few VERY FEW i talk to on a REAL level, otherwise i ignore most. Because they aren't worth my time. They'll just make fucked up comments and gossip about me behind my back probably anyways. No loss there, eh?
Alright well i'm talking to James, he's actually interesting compared to most of the fucked up morons at roosevelt. YAY haha. We're playing some stupid yahoo game that gives a whole new meaning to BUTT UGLY AND DUMB! Rawr. Oh well i'm going to do my best to convince him this game is retarded so we can do something else. We talk sometimes- and do.. other stuff too. I'd rather not do the other stuff though because well.. = I don't know. "friends" just don't lead towards that way unless it's going places. Which seems it's not. So there for - NO TO THAT STUFF! =; HAND. Alright well. Yeah. BYe now.
Jaded Ness.
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