You say you want forgiveness, I say promise me it ends.
Hi. It's me again aparently-- just wasting some thoughts in spare time, while he lays there in bed with his eyes closed. (Hence how i have not said "sleeping"). I remember how I would always ask questions upon questions, yet never have an answer-- now it seems to be reversed. You know you're bored with life when you predict the people you are around. I was watching roswell yesterday, and Liz and Max their whole sinerio is weird, completely weird. But in the end they end up together, why? If i recall Maria says, "Either forgive him, or let him go." Perhaps that is something I need to seriously contemplate when I am not scared anymore. All this time I sat here thinking it was trust, when really it has been all about forgiveness. Forgiveness. I recall all the times I have told myself and him both I refuse to forgive because that would mean everything was okay. I wish things were that easy, but their not. I'm just always afraid of getting walked on and then thrown to the side. Why do I always feel threatend by the people in which he knows? I don't know. If someone could explain this vicious never ending cycle I would apreciate it. But, sadly, I feel no one has an answer to this question. Until next time. Vanessa old embraces || and those || yet to come |
I loved on Friday, Aug. 06, 2004 at 12:43 pm |