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Well today i seen "The hot chic" haha. That movie was fucking HILARIOUS!!! Lol I loved it! I almost spit my pop out because they were doing queerish comment's and shit. It was amusing, i must say.
I was laughing at Christy's away messege. That was amusing as well :X Ya' know i honestly thought this whole petty bickering and shit talking was over with between Dani, Jayson, and I. But I guess not. Jayson had to go running his mouth again, about shit he knows nothing about. At least when i run my mouth i have facts to back it up. Fuck =; Oh well. I wasn't in their lives at ALL. Since i left my last journal, and but then Dani e-mails me with bullshit, as if it's a peace flag and shit. Please. I was perfectly fine without knowing whether or not they still existed. I've moved on, but whatever. They don't ruien my mood not one bit. I'm still happy. =)
I've had a pretty good past two months, if i do say so myself. I've been busy with school and all the shit that comes along with it. It's like having a 24/7 job. But instead of money i'm getting paid off with Grades, and hopefully a good Scholarship. Men are not at the top of my list. I really don't have time for a boyfriend, but that doesn't mean that i'm not keeping my eyes open for a special someone. If he comes he comes. If not- Life goes on! I'd rather wait years for the right person, then deal with people who don't even meet the qualities a real man should have. I'm not playing with that cheap imitation bullshit. =; no thanks =)
I made a pretty good fucking song with two of my old poems, by adding and taking away parts, then combining the two, the song is great. I wish i was in a band though to make the words really come to life. But oh well. That dream of mine won't ever come true :X That's why i'm going to be a teacher.lol
College will be here next fall. Am i ready?Eh.. Sorta. I'm ready to move on with my life, get a new job, an apartment, a higher education, and a new wardrobe. haha. Fuck. I know that if i become a teacher my clothes can't be as extreme in detail and creativeness as they normally are. But oh well there's always weekends, and nights! haha. Lmao that makes me sound like a transvestite LMAO. NO! I am not =; lol. I do want to move around the Belmont and clark area though. Best people in the world. I feel i belong there.Anyways!!!!
I haven't heard from Tj, he told me Justin's GF is pregnant, Austins G/f(future wife) is pregnant again, and he's going through hell from what he hints. It's kinda sad he hasn't found anyone special. I can only wish the best for him i guess. They are like my second family, Despite how much my mom doesn't like Tj. lol.
I'm eating crackers. YUMMM!!!!! I've been eating them all weekend. lol. I love them!!!!!
The bond between Felix and i seems to be growing. But i don't know, he's cute and all. But, i kinda wish we talked more. When we have deep conversations and shit.. It's like WHOA. A whole other side to felix. I know every guy has two sides. A hard shell, then the insecurities. I love a guy like that. Knowing how they are around everyone else, but then completely different with me. It's fucking cool. You learn so much about a person. I'm like that. I'll have a hard shell, a careless attitude, and a bitchy mouth with people i careless about. But bring me someone that could mean the world to me, and i'm so sweet, nice, and completely cheesy.lol I love that side of me. It hasn't been out since like Austin though. I toughend up since our relationship fucked up. = Wish i could find someone like him, but not as emotionally tough. I need someone thats going to communicate with me openly, and bring the best out of me, as i try to do the same for them.
Anyways my hands are tired so i'm going to listen to some music and watch tv. Laid her!
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